Your Moon sits in Anuradha, in the 8th from your ascendant. Anuradha is devotion that outlasts the reason for it — loyalty that keeps paying after the account closes. An 8th-house Moon binds intimacy to intensity: calm reads as absence to you, and churn reads as love. That’s the mechanism. Nothing is wrong with you; the wiring rewards the wrong signal.
Add Venus in the 12th and the pattern gets a voice — it narrates leaving as the loss of something sacred rather than the end of something expensive. You don’t stay because you’re weak. You stay because your chart treats endings as bereavements, and your current Saturn period is grading you on endurance.
The work this season isn’t to feel less. It’s to let Saturn’s question — “what is this devotion for?” — be answered honestly. Anuradha can rebind itself to a practice, a craft, a…